transition time

I cleaned out my desk at the church office yesterday - since I'm not 'on staff' anymore so I can focus on church planting. But I don't exactly feel focused - I feel a little at loose ends. (or perhaps the right word is discombobulated)

I've always been happier when I am self-directed and not micromanaged - and I know from being an artist that the 'blank canvas' is always intimidating, but once you get going, it gets easier. It's not that I don't know what to do next either, its just that I haven't actually started to do it.

I am really thrilled that Joe and I are doing this together - when I first felt a calling and a vision for leading a church, Joe was supportive of whatever I wanted to do, but it didn't seem like he was going to get involved. Since we went away for a weekend in June, the vision has become ours, not just mine, and the new church is something we are birthing together. (and since our 3 human children have turned out quite well, I'm very hopeful!)